Mood: In pain

Music/TV: None

I am in pain right now. Physical pain it is the worth kind a person has to live with. I have no idea how I came this far in life. I have lost people and friends that where close to me and then I have to deal with this skin disorder. Life is not fair to me. It never has been. I have no idea what I have done wrong or anything. I have tried to understand why. But I can’t anymore. I have tried to stay positive but how can I when all there is in my life is heart ach and pain? Not to mention mostly physical pain that gets me real bad. The bad thing is that I can’t have any pain killers or what not. B/c I have bad kidneys and they are acting up on me and the Dr. doesn’t want me to have anything really, until we find out what’s wrong.

On another note.. My Grammy is stressed. We still have to sell that other place. Then she has to make $400 more so we don’t get into debt or what not. Then while I had my kidney Biopsy my blood count went down. Great. So I am a nemix again. So, that explains why I have been so tired and sleep most of the days out. But o well. Whatever. There is nothing I can do about it.

God Bless

if you Look inside a Girl`s
[*.H - e - a - R - t.*]
Youd see how much she
really cries
Youll find secrets hidden,
Best friends, and Lies
But what youll see the most
is hOw
l | [ HarD ] | l it iS to sTay [(strOng)]
wheN Nothing`s right
and everything is wrong

Mood: Worried

Music/TV: CSI

I am updating and decided to start over with my blog. I was having such a fun time with it. Where o where do I start. Well, let me start buy saying I live in FL. Yes FL. So we had to leave the Island when the two hurricanes came threw. We went to Tampa the first one and Palm Bay the second storm. So in the mean time these hurricanes are coming through and in I’m worried about al my things at home.. Then we where in the process of moving in a new place.  So, we moved in and then we hooked up my pc and then what do you know my hard drives goes on me. I had to buy a whole new hard drive and then my Grammy had to re-format hers. So, that’s ok now. We are moved in finally.

Then on top of all this I had to have a kidney Biopsy and it went well. I had it Tuesday. The 26^th. I am sore from it. Big time. Wow! LOL. But we will get the results in two weeks. I am kind of scared about it. I hope its nothing. My kidneys are giving me trouble and that is why I had to get this surgery.

Now about my love life? I don’t have one. I don’t have a man either. I did but I broke it off. I am just not ready yet. I have some trusting issues I need to work on and some other among other things. So yea..

I have a funny story to tell you.. We have 4 cats. I have two and my dad has one and my gram has one. Well there is this cat around here and it was at the porch door and Tigger my grams cat smelled it and omg did he go nuts then Trint my dads cat jumped in the air tried to land in my grammys lap while my grammy was getting up. My cats Jesse and Buddy ran in my room and didn’t come out. LMAO it was so funny!

God Bless

Jennifer