Doctor office called today and said that it looks like I will be getting Dialysis soon. My kidney function is 12%. Kidney failure is 10%. So, we are waiting for the Cindy the doctor’s nurse to call us back. I will be getting the Hem dialysis. 

My sister came over tonight. She will be staying the whole week with us. Wow what a change in her. NOT! She has no idea what I am going through. NO IDEA! I am every damn emotion you can think of right now. I am just keeping you all up to date. Who ever reads me anymore.

God Bless

Hey all,

I am hanging in there I guess. It seems to get harder everyday that passes me by. I am weak, tired, headaches, dizziness, seeing things. Just not me anymore. It seems like somebody took over me. Does this happen with Kidney failure???  I mean I don’t even care what I look like when I go anywhere anymore. I just hope this gets betters not worse. I need something that is GOOD too happen to me!!!! I am so tired of the bad!

I feel that my days are coming to an end. I don’t want to think about it. I mean some days I just don’t want to get out of bed because it’s too much for me now. I don’t understand what this life is for anymore. To me it’s hell.

God Bless

Well, We are back now. It was a long and tiring trip for me. I hope we don’t have that many doctor appointments again.  We are so tired!

The hand dr. said it’s king good but we have to watch for cancer still. So yea. But they got all of it out. So that’s good.  We saw Dr. Wesson My derm on Wesnday and he was not happy with my skin. He said that I need to keep the stress level down. Hahah Funny. How in the hell can I do that?

The kidney dr. said I can get a stomach dialysis and do it at home once we learn how to do that. It still makes me feel shitty.  I am at the point where I just don’t care if I live or die now. I will have so much to do if my kidneys go to 15%. They are almost there.

God Bless

Well, my kidney doctor’s office just called and said my kidney function is worse. I am so scared at this point I don’t know what to do or think. I prey every time I feel bad or upset. I can handle little things like the cancer I had on my right hand. It’s getting better. But kidney failure? Is it time for me to go? Or is god testing me again. I go to Shands next week. If I don’t post buy the weekend that means I am in the hospital. I will have my friend Manders update for me. There is so much I want to do and experience. I just need prayer big time…..

My kidney function is 26% and the doc said it is worse. So, it might be looking like I will be getting a kidney transplant soon. I am on a low sodium and all that. But, it looks like it’s note helping. You can’t imagine how scared I am right now. I am in tears because I am just at a loss of everything.

God bless

It’s just another day to me. Nothing special anymore. I just hope this New Year brings me better health..

I am sorry I have not posted in forever. I have been sick. My blood is very low again and having kidney trouble again. My function is down more. The dr said I should just get the transplant because I would not survive long on the dialysis.. Even if I get the transplant it will be bad also. Here’s a link to a kidney transplant.

I haven’t been myself. I cried yesterday like a big baby. I haven’t cried in so long. It just hurts me so bad. I am confused about everything and why I have to be put in this situation. I just want to go on with my life as I planned before any of this happened. No body knows how I am feeling right now. Only one person and they are no longer here. When a dr tells you might not live through both it just makes me want to give up and make it easier.

I go to Shands some time next week to see MORE doctors and get more testing done for my kidneys. I need a lot of prayers right now..

God Bless