I'm still here...  Just been really sick.. VERY high fever and vomitting.. I'm trying to get better.. It's been going on for like almost a week now. I hope everyone is well..  I'm not online a lot b/c I'm in bed sleeping..

God Bless

Yea so I met this guy…  We will call him “Bubba”; He is awesome to talk to on the phone. We have a lot of things in common, and it gets better as we talk more and more. I told him about my skin disorder and me having to get Dialysis and all.. He said he is fine with it. But, inside of me I don’t feel he is fine with it.  All, guys would/want a “perfect” looking girls.  He is so sweet though. I don’t know what to think of this. He is so understanding and respects me and what I need to do and all. I had to talk about it and let my feelings outs. I truly like him and when I like a guy it all fucks up. I don’t know I am confused.. He is coming up down here next week…

I went to dialysis yesterday. It went well. Very um how should I out it scary?  I bring my game-boy and my headset radio.  They also have a TV there so I can watch Ellen!!!  YAY I just wish the pain would go away!  It’s going away slowly! But not fast enough for me. 

God Bless

Hey all, I am sorry I have not been on..  I had a real bad time. I was told that I almost died. Here is what happen…  I went to take a nap on Thursday 3/4 and my Grammy came in my room and laid next to me and she told me she looked at me and all of a sudden I started shaken I had a seizer. She called 911 they took me to the ER and did all these kinds of tests and they gave me a dialysis port and a iv in my groan they put this clear shit on the iv and it took my skin off my ground. So, any who. I don’t remember any of this. I remember Sunday and on but that its. It is scary. It’s been pure hell for me. 

But, this also showed me who really truly loves me and cares for me. And I have so many people that do. I am a lucky girl to have a Grammy that knows what to do and stayed right there with me.  I am so thankful for the people that love me. I don’t care if I have a man. I just don’t care. All I care about is how many people love me and care for me.  But any who what happen was my kidneys failed. So I am on Dialysis now. It’s Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday at 2:30.  It’s tough, it makes me tired, gives me headaches, and upset stomach. It’s not easy.

God Bless